It ain't me, it ain't you...

2010-08-22T11:04:00.000+08:00

I Am Definitely Feeling Alone...

2010-07-30T07:15:00.001+08:00

hey all
everything been fine in poly
life been pack
work,band and eury
and school life was so much better....
i hope you were here
i really miss you eventhough i know you don't
oh what the heck
i don't even stand a chance with anyone now
so why bother

still...

2010-06-07T00:26:00.001+08:00

have you been ever in a position where all your friends have moved on with their lives?
leaving you behind in the dust to rot?
where your friends have been forgetting all whatever you have done and whatever moments they share with you?
it seriously sucks being me
i mean what kind of inconsiderate being wants being friends with me
i am just a stupid asshole guy who is just a nobody
a used tissue
a used toy which you don't want to play with no more
its not being popular im worried about
im worried about dying alone in this world with no but yourself to die with
its darn stupid
fuck

2010-05-29T07:13:00.002+08:00

I guess everyone thinks i am jerk now
everytime i walk in singapore polytechnic everyone thinks i am jerk
even SPSU think that i am a stupid jock
even in band i guess
i suck to the core playing the clarinet
i feel so ashamed and i just feel like quiting
i love music no doubt
but i just don't want to live up to people expectations
and whenever i failed them, they think i am a jerk
haiz, damn, fuck...
that's how i explain it now in my life

yesterday the Tok Imam told me something so important that it has clouded me so much
be grateful
be grateful for the things you have
your family
your friends
and most impportantly, yourself
i am grateful to have what i have right now
i have a wonderful family
i have great friends, both old and new
and especially i love myself eventhough sometimes blame myself for the things i can't do...
thank you ALLAH!
eventhough i don't seem to appreciate it i do
and especially thank you for sending amirah to me to talk to me whenever i feel down
she has been a great friend and a great motivator
hahhahhas
thank you
you taught to me to love again
but its hard when i fall in love with you....

2010-05-25T22:24:00.003+08:00

hey
its been a long time that i updated this blog but the fuck reads my blog?!
anyway its been 6 weeks since my polytechnic life started
two weeks until my mid semester test
it has been doing great
enjoy my time with my new friends and great moments shared in just six weeks
though a huge miss to all my old friends
haven't met them yet after so long
but hey, someday
Camps has drained me out like hell
lectures has drained me like hell
report has drained me like hell
joined band as a CCA again
hahahhas
guess i really music to the max
it never really bores me really
hhahahhahhahas
band camp was awesome
too awesome
but there is really one thing i hate in poly life
Transport!

hahahhas
and i not sure about this
and im not sure about how strong this feelings are
and i am definitely not sure how much the desire is there
but
i have feelings for NUR AMIRAH BTE AMIR HAMZAH....
damn...fuck

2010-05-19T05:28:00.000+08:00

I JUST FEEL SO DAMN TIRED TO GO TO SCHOOL TODAY.... BUT YEAH THERE BAND PRACTICE TODAY!!! WOOTS!

2010-04-20T01:50:00.002+08:00

Hey all you people out there

everything has been great for me i guess

i mean school finally started again after so long of a break

i somehow feel damn stupid...

hahahhas

oh well...

so far had this SPSU FO camp which was totally awesome

the best camp i ever attended

it was fun and cool and everything was soo damn awesome

too bad it had too end so early

i wish it was a 4D3N

only then will i enjoy the camp like supersuper

hhhahas

anyway orientation started for all freshmans at their respective polytechnics

i got to know m classmates who i was very shocked to find them enthusiastic

and kinda fun actually

everyone spoke up on the first day we met and we instantly became friends

not bad huh for a couples of nerds!

hahhahahs just kidding

had flag day too for the president star charity

it was definitely fun walking around the whole singapore

literally-ok almost there ah

we set off from somerset but then we walked from somerset to orchard to bugis and then to city hall!

how shiok is that!

first time i walk such a long distance before

hahahhas

had a great welcome party on that day too

clubbing night for the second time in my life!

the first one of course was in the SPSU FO camp

only now did i know that i had some great moves! hahahahs

dance the whole night away

made new friends from other courses and damn was it the best!

sad though cause school is starting soon

and here we are today

just finish my first day

not bad for the start of poly life

but frankly speaking

i would so much want to return back to secondary school life

everyone keeps staring at you and i feel so left out?
and to mention the damn long queues during lunch breaks

cannot take it!

not to mention the damn packed trains i had to go back home in

very the troublesome

hahhaas i guess that how poly life is

you feel kinda weird and tinkling inside

but hey! tomorrow gonna be a great day huh?

hahhahahas! awwryte! let's goo!

2010-04-07T22:04:00.002+08:00

hey

whoever is there reading this

i am glad you are

everything doing well

i guess?

i mean its boring at home but who cares

at least its home sweet home

i guess i was over reacting the last time

friends always be there for you

as i has been for my friends

im happy that im alive today

living such a life has its ups and downs but at the end of the day

we laugh

hahahhas

and i am glad to take this opportunity

to thank everyone who has been at my side

thank you

2010-03-31T09:45:00.003+08:00

I hate the fact that everyone think i am just an useless nobody which nobody freaking cares what or how i feel deep inside and which everybody thinks i am just a freaking extra jerk which nobody needs...

and yes, I am Pathetic...

2010-03-23T11:07:00.002+08:00

and here i am

standing and sitting and sulking and lying down and everything

im damn bored right now at home

waiting for any call or anyone to ask me out to anywhere

which i guess its not gonna happened any way

i guess everyone right now thinks im a jerk

anyway who wants to remember someone like me?

i mean im just a nobody

not like those people who are so damn popular

like Izzuan or everyone else

people asked me to cheer up but how can i?

people keep on pushing me down, bringing me to a new low where i don't know if i can bring myself up

somewhere i just hope people can accept me for who i am

appreciate me for the things i do

a simple thank you would also do

how much it would bring a smile on my face

i just hope that is someone out there who can be my hero

or even a heroine...i just hope

alot happened last week...

went to malacca last two weeks friday

i swear i ate alot during the kampong days

especially the nasi lemak

cannot take it! sedap....

it was especially great when both my Wak Ibah, Wak Imah and Wak Wahid an their family tagged along too

it was a blast,definitely...

how i wish it was longer even though

last week wednesday

eurythemics had an outing to Sakura's at Clementi

enjoyed myself to the max with the family

hahahs

jokes went around, including the food of course

the food was delicious!

what did you expect from a buffet place

hahhas

went home very late though

terrible!

had two matches last week too

but i kinda don't wanna talk about it

both of the matches were terrible

hahhaahas

ohh yeah! i forgot to mention

finished reading the twilight series!

wonderful work by Stephanie Meyer

hahhaha!

well see you people soon though!

byes!

2010-03-09T12:39:00.002+08:00

Have you ever wondered how huge the world is?

how every corner seems to be a place for learning?

and at the same time it somehow makes you cry at its beauty?

i really want to travel around the world and see the scenes of the world which treat the senses into incredible sensations!

well i guess that got to wait

just thinking again

about what has happened to me this past year

just remembered how many people i pissed off in 2009

damn

how i wished that those days would change

i regret doing them of course

i admit i was being childish

i just wish i could take it all back

i mean

who doesn't?

all i could ever wish is that i am forgiven

i know im one who keeps on raking up the past

but sometimes what they say is true

the past will haunt you one day

im just worried that people will keep grudges against me

i don't wanna make any more enemies

seriously

i really hope people accept my apology

im so dearly sorry...

2010-03-08T23:41:00.000+08:00

Syazwan, you need to learn to accept yourself , before others can accept who you are. Who you wanna be, is where you wanna stand in this world. I know it’s not easy to be adaptable to changes. I found it difficult too. I struggled. We have to.

To be honest, I was afraid of changes that will take place once I stepped into polytechnic. New friends. New environment. More enemies. But then, thinking of who I wanna be, I started to realise that I should make an aim.make only one aim cos when there’s too much, you don’t know where to start. So what’s my aim? To enter the local university into the course that I wanted (psychology) . Relationship will stop for me for awhile. My dreams, my future cant wait. I shouldn’t care what others have to say,I know its hard, but I believe I’ll make it through the hardships.

I cant expect anyone to accept my flaws, cos I don’t accept theirs too, sometimes. And that, I’ll have to be understandable that we’re humans. We are imperfect, that’s why we are here to polish ourselves and try to be perfect.life is never hard. Don’t push it hard on yourself, you’ll just make the going harder.

Instead, be there for yourself. Trust your instincts. Know what you want. And appreciate little things that people made for you and you’ll be the happiest man on Earth. Its okay to be childish sometimes, its human nature. Pamper yourself. Make yourself feels good. Not so difficult. For example, treat yourself a dinner that you want instead of what is the least expensive in the menu or maybe, buy the pencil that cost 10 dollars. Cos you deserved the best ;) that’ll make you happy, for shure.

If you don’t love yourself, then who will? Mother theresa would. Too bad, she’s dead :P well anyway,my kiyai taught me something- the power of zero.

He said “ power of zero- mengosongkan semua fikiran dari kotoran-kotoran apapun, serta khayalan yang negatif ,hilangkan semua beban dahulu ,rileks, atur pernafasan , dan munculkan sifat positif ,maafkan sesiapapun yang pernah bersalah,yang pernah mengecewakan,mencederai dan yang pernah melukakan. Lupakan semua itu.Dan tanggalkan pakaian dunia,jabatan, maupun kekayaan, dan pakailah pakaian yaang telah dianugerahkan oleh Allah ,yaitu iman, keikhlasan dan ketaqwaan”

thank you Asyqah...

2010-03-07T18:29:00.002+08:00

Its not any one fault for the place i am today

eventhough being who i am right now has made me very down and useless and apparently, disabled,

im not going blame anyone for it

its my destiny and im accepted it

i hate to admit it but im happy for once

but that happiness not fulfill just yet

it seems very empty to me

and i feel scared

not being to fill up that single hole to brim and forever full whenever

im afraid o what the future holds me

what it has in store for me

i wanna stand tall but being pull down by the negatives of everyone around me

i just wish it would stop right now and right here

it hurts so much

thats why i have to hold that burden alone

not him or her,not even you

i am responsible for what i am, never you

never will you be feeling how i am cause its never you who should hold the negatives

its just me

i just hope you understand that

i love you so ever much

i want to hold you in your arms and hold you so tight

but i gotta let you go

cause this isn't your blame

this is never your fault

its was never you

it was me

so this is why you must promised me

never to fall in love with me

please....

2010-03-02T08:41:00.006+08:00

Hahahhas its march!

and here comes a whole month of doing nothing but stare at empty spaces

im jobless again after finishing my assignment at NTUC

it was a great experience being there and i regret leaving

they were a great group of aunties and uncle i have ever met

hahhas anyway wanna concentrate on getting better at my football and getting my fitness back

i am a huge lump of fats right now

hahahahs ouh well

pay was a great ad not thinking of using it yet

wanna save up for something huge unfortunately

my hope for this month is to watch as many movies i can get my hands on and unfortunately finish reading breaking dawn

hopefully!

nothing much to say actually due to more boredom instead of fun flooding in my life now

going for a medical check up tday

so lets all see how it goes heh?

2010-02-18T22:00:00.002+08:00

I guess working at NTUC was not half as bad
made new friends even though most of them are veryveryvery older than me
but hey, what the heck! friendships know no limit right?
hahhas
well,had a hell of a month last month
with CNY around the corner had to work overtime
haish
i tink my eyesbags have eyesbags!
hahhahahs
well, everything went well working there
i mean for once the boss likes my attitude in work
so i guess that good right?
most probably working until April
and after during poly days
i think?

Anyway can't wait to get to singapore poly soon
to become a student once more
haish
miss the old days
don't know much about chemical engineering
but i guess its my future
and i think im doing the right thing
for now i guess?
still clueless which CCA im going to
still making my choice between band or malay arts
i mean for once i need to show some interest in my own culture right?
i mean the malay arts are not bad
thinking of Dikir Barat or Malay Orchestra
hahhahhas not bad huh?
anyway, its been months since touching a soccer ball
countdown to saturday morning!!!

i guess right now im looking at the brighter side of life
the past has left me scarred but it ensures me that it ain't gonna bleed again
im happy now after so ling and smiling very wide
im happy i left it all behind
hahhahas i guess now
i shouldn't worry too much about the future
Taz was right
we should take days one by one
never in one gulp full
hahhahas so thats a some sort of summary of what happened these few days
and i guess its time to go now
sowie abt that!
hahhahas thanks for reading, geraldine!
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2010-01-28T20:42:00.002+08:00

I feel so shitty of myself right now
everyone has someone to fall on but me
i was going to fall all the down to the bottomless pits
nobody ever gonna stand in front of a bullet for me
nobody gonna commit suicide for the sake of me
nobody
i feel so alone right now as if the world was ever empty
my insides very hollow
like a hole was punched through my heart
if there is ever anyone out there who can hear me out right now
i will gladly love them for who they are
crying in silents has been more and more painful each time around
im dying
seriously unconscious in the deep sea
somebody please help
please

2010-01-25T21:35:00.002+08:00

today was satisfying at last!
went to meet up with shahliza,kwan and rabiah to tutor them in chemistry...
complete headache but had a lot of laughs and catching up with one another
soon after izzuan ask me out for a few drills at school
tried my new Adidas AdiCore for the first time and it was fabulous!
it was worth the huge bucks i guess
though it needs to be seasoned a little more
and i definitely need to work on my fitness and ball control
i guess i gonna work on it straight away i guess

hahhahas gogogogo!!!

2010-01-19T21:31:00.002+08:00

the week has been great for me...sorta
everything went well at work
gonna get my paycheck soon enough after this sunday
and it seems i have become addicted to the twilight saga
to kick start i am gonna start reading new moon!
just bought the book on monday
cost me 16 bucks though due to its special offer
gonna get eclipse soon enough

talking about work, it seems that everyone wants to work at NTUC now
today Hafez,Faris,Faiz,Khairul Hazwan and Najib all found a job at NTUC Toa Payoh HDB hub
i don't know if its great news or what but i guess i won't be lonely no more
hhahshahhas
ouh well
and i finally bought the boots i wanted!
yeah!
haven't tried them on yet but i just can't wait for the debut of...
Adidas AdiCore TRX FG!!
hahhahas anxiously waiting
hmmm...

"The uncertainty is killing me!"

2010-01-17T00:48:00.002+08:00

it kinda sucks being me
so unsure of myself
so full of endless sorrows
hopes into dust
im just want everything to be the back the way it is
so carefree and easy
but as i grew older the more i become...
less me and more of someone i don't know
for the first in my life im afraid of tomorrow
im afraid of myself
definite need of an angel
arghhh!!!!

2010-01-11T23:21:00.002+08:00

well it ain't the greatest day today with O level results coming out
i mean my pimples has gone popping up
my face turned into Mars
didn't get results i wanted though and i just started my morning shift this weekend
damn it lah

2010-01-11T23:03:00.002+08:00

heyheyhey guys
its me again
life isn't going so great with work and all
but did i mention the great time i had with Eurythemics at Downtown East for our chalet??
hhahhas

we all met up at Admiralty MRT around 12 noon and made our way there
when we arrived of course everyone settled down and we watch a bit of television
got bored and when to the bowling alley
i was good at first but damn was i bad
hahhhas superduper
ouh well first timer
berd of cause fell!
hhahhas!

den ard 930 we went swimming!!!!
yeah cool down a bit after our BBQ and to end our day perfectly...
we watched Paranormal Activity around 1 to 3
spine tinkling!
i can't sleep the whole nyte
but wen i did, izzuan squeezed some toothpaste on me
haiyaa!!!!

the next day was more jump packed!
went to Wild Wild Wet
damn shioked!
played on all kind of slides and boats and floats
especially Ular-lah
like going on to the ends of the earth!
don't get me started on the rest of the rides
but overall very fun and great with Eury around
late nyte movie we watched Alvin and the Chipmunks 2
hahhahs cutey and adorable as always!

went home soon the next day
awww too bad!

2010-01-05T08:35:00.002+08:00

Im kinda bored,really
my job ain't that great but yet its kinda fun
my life kinda sucks but yet its interesting
everything has gone haywire but yet it unravels something new
its crowded in the train all the time but yet enjoyed seeing the many faces
im worn out but yet not tired
i stink but yet its comfortable
im sad but yet joyful
im sick but yet hyper active
i love you but yet i don't miss you

Its kinda weird how things turn out to be opposites huh?

"Laughing my way through the dark..."

2010-01-03T08:29:00.002+08:00

Heyheyhey!!
its that time of year again!
the start of something new!
2010!
hhahas!
it had been a great 2009 where i met new friends and its the year where i realize the true me
ouh well that year has already gone and now its time to start anew!
im glad that its the start of the 2010 because in six month time its the 2010 FIFA World Cup in South Africa!
yeah! rooting spain this time
but funny though, because i don't support countries no more! hahahhas! anyway this year im really aiming to be the best player i can be in Eurythemics
they have been my family and my teammates and they sorta grew on me...
the only way to repay them is by playing my best for them for every match ahhahas!

other then that im happy with i have now and thanked god for that
my height or my hair isn't going to be an issue again
i mean, i love my hair and height!
hahahas anyway started work at NTUC and its not bad really
my supervisor is quite nice and at least she bothers about me
hahahas ouh well!

its the countdown to the unraveling of the new Nike Tiempo Super Ligera!!!
can't wait!!!

"Heavy in Class, Light in Touch"

2010-01-03T07:45:00.002+08:00

Match: Eurythemics Vs Omar's Selection
Final Score: 9-2
Match Ratings: 6.5

it was another great game for the number 21...he was well organised and also very comfortable on the ball. there were a few setbacks for the right full back as he was involve in conceding the two goals. But an overall a great game for the young full back

Personal opinion: an average game though for me. the opponents were great and had individual skills but lack teamwork. but i was satisfied with my performance today

2009-12-31T04:16:00.002+08:00

Hey you guys out there!
its 4 am in the morning and i feel great!
watching bola of course early in the morning
well anyway today is the last day of 2009 and i felt its time for me to forgive and forget all the bad stuff in 2009
it hurt to let go but lets us all review 2009 shall we?

this year was a critical point for the band
it was once again Singapore Youth Festival again and everyone is aiming for that silver award again
Mr Samuel of course appointed me as the Band Major of this band and it was my responsibility to lead them to victory
and with perseverance and determination
of course and i constant scoldings,
we got a silver!
the crowd goes wild!
woots!

this year also marks the year where i got my few trophies with Eurythemics
the Adss Cup, the NAPFA Fitness League and not forgetting the silver medal for Sports Carnival
a very fruitful year for me really as i celebrate my one year anniversary when i joined the team on the 30th july 2008
Eurythemics had always been there for me through thick and thin
they were responsible for me becoming the most lethal defender in ADSS...
and not to menion their encouragements and friendship we shared together had always be there forever
hahhahas! thank you guys!!

this year also marks the year where i spent my last 365 days together with 4e1...
man am i gonna miss you guys seriously
especially jason,wilson and syafiq of course who has made my 2009 a special one for me
the constant jokes, the everlasting smiles and not forgettig the dreadful falls we had
hahhas memories
couldn't forget the rest f the class who i spent my last two years with
gonna miss you guys dearly and lets all pray for the best for the future
"to battle we go,in victory we return..."

and not forgetting my friends from the 34th NCO
the clarinet section of course
we had a fun time at NCO and may we have another fun times in years to come
the time we spent at Sentosa on that day was great and we had a joyful time there too
and of course i would like to thank Aqilah for accompanying me to Jodie's concert on tuesday
hahhas ouh well anyway just wanna thanks both you and jodie for being good friends a guy can ever ask!
thanks guys!

so thats whats sum up the happy moments i had this year
a great 2009
a year i will always remember
and i will always miss my friends from ADSS always
love you guys loads!

2009-12-30T07:36:00.004+08:00

Match: Vendetta Vs Eurythemics
Final Score:3-3
Match Rating: 6.5

it was a better and well improved match for the number 21...
it was an overall physical game and with the pitch at a state unimaginable, it was going to be hard for him at his full back position
but still he stood tall
the first half didn't go so well as the speedy winger and the wonderful plays by vendetta kept him confused and lost in most part of the game
but that didn't discouraged him as it was a totally different story in the second half
he showed better composure with the ball and he was on task in his defending duties
an overall improved performance but yet there is alot to improve on...

Personal opinion: it was a highly competitive game as both sides try to outplay each other. highly physical as body are being thrown here and there. i was satisfied the way i did played and hopefully its the start of something new...

didnt turned out so well...

2009-12-28T22:54:00.002+08:00

well my christmas didn't turn out to be the best christmas for me this year though
had to work at Carrefour during the christmas period and damn was it boring
not to forget that im leaving there after six days
sobsob
made alot of friends there and very glad to have worked there
thanks guys fr making my day everytime i was there
especially fateha
hahhahs thanks you very much!
but there is one time for certain...
getting my pay this sunday!
yes!!
can't wait for the new boot smell
Tiempo Ligera here i come!
hahahs

Anyway went back to band again this morning
not bad though i can tell the band is improving but the band is still far from getting back to its best...had a great time at band though for so long
i miss them!
hahhas wahh like im a bit lembut!
hhahas after that went to tanjong pagar with abu dzar to sent my timesheet and den...
KACHING!!
yeah!

P.s. its hurts me to see you with some one else but i guess i have to let it go even though i don't want to
it pains me to see that we are not meant for each other but i guess its for the best for me even though i deeply hurting inside
i love you always and i hoped that everything could worked out between you and him
may all the happiness and luck come flowing to you forever and ever
i love you, always....

"it ain't right for me to cry over split milk...gotta let it go..."

2009-12-24T08:50:00.001+08:00

I will just state that the Admiralty Secondary Symphonic winds is in a state where i can never seems to describe in a normal, gentleman-like words....
hope you guys all the best....

2009-12-22T07:59:00.002+08:00

HAHAHAHAHHaS!!!
didnt update this blog yet after so long
most probably its because i finally a busy man
because i finally have a job at Carrefour!!
yeah
but its gonna end on the 27th of dec so it won't be long until i am jobless again
but for once im happy that money is coming to me fast!
yeahhh!!! tiempo ligera!
hahhaas
so this is what im been doing so far this last few days

Friday was my official first day there
it was a great experience and all
EVENTHOUGH,it was just packing stuff,hahhas
so anyway it was fun and all
but it was hard to satisfy customer
they were very picky on the small things
specially this old uncle
but let me ask you something...
HOW CAN YOU GLUE A CAKE TOGETHER??!!!
i mean what the heck?
gila uncle
but other than that every problem i faced was dealt smoothly and thankfully,easily
gotta say the customer is always right huh?
work the whole shift from opening to closing
tired!

saturday i felt so bummed out and extremely stress out
guess it was me sleeping at 3 a.m.
stupid!!
worked at the atrium though
wow can't i believe the toys
especially their prices
i swear that if i wasn't working i would be buying one of the transformers there
arghh!!!
finished my shift from 10 am to 10 pm
came home in an exhausting state
argh!!! bad night sleep too

sunday was a bit more relaxed because of my shift ending at 5pm
fun because i was paired up with this chinese girl
hahhas
the rest ehemehem ahh!
hahahhas
but nothing happened between us though
because both of us was stuck with the overloaded jobs
so too bd didn't asked for her number!
haiyaa!!!

hahhahas so that the end of my story of my working life
this whole week im gonna rest up really well before i start working again this friday
hahhas can't wait?

2009-12-16T15:57:00.002+08:00

Job interview didn't go well as i wanted to
its just makes my head boils when hat job just flows away
arghhh!!!!
tomorrow going job hunting again with najib
hopefully it goes well cause for so long i been waiting for that job but to no prevail

damn tired though after today match
played my hardest today and i hope i can do the same with the match tomorrow against ego
never heard of such a team before
but i need to and have to put my best
lets go!!!!!

hahhahas doing nothing today for a few hours now and im sick and tired of it
let me end this post by saying...
I NEED A JOB!!!!???

"Life and its biggest mysteries..."

2009-12-16T15:46:00.002+08:00

Match: Allied Elements Vs Sembawang Selections
Final Score: 3-3
Match Rating: 6

it was a well deserved performance from the number 21...he had hard at first with the pitch and the broken up boot
he put up a good performance with him trying to reorganise the defence and the role of right back and left back
he was up to his best but not as best as he should be
probably with a little more dedication and a little more determination he may able to put a better and a top notch performance

personal opinion: the injury to my heel didnt help but i was happy with my performance and hopes for the best next time
i need a lot of patience and try a little more aggression next time...

2009-12-12T01:58:00.002+08:00

this world now never seems to be revolving around me
everything i do right now seems to have an adverse effect on everybody
my every decision,my every action,my every word
different people just have different opinions about me
i don't want everyone to like me
but i just want people to know how i feel inside
ouh well i cannot say that im perfect because no body is
im so unsure of myself and its getting and piling up more and more
hahhas
its funny how i laughed at a thing like this
but when i looked back its kinda funny and lame
but everyone got their problems including me
so i ain't gonna fret or complain all day about it
so now i gonna just stay put an make sure that everything goes well
lets us just pray together and hopes for the best
ciao!!

"The question inside my head..."

The endless search....

2009-12-11T08:57:00.001+08:00

Two days of endless searching for a job didn't go to well
waiting long for that opportunity to try my way into the work force
hahahs i guess sometimes its ain't my day or its never meant to be...
but my pockets are going up dry!
oh well going to be broke no more!
there is going to be another kendarat on both weekends
that means ka-ching!
hahhahas!

Anyway went out yesterday and yesterday,yesterday yesterday
thats means thursday and tuesday!
hahahhas went out with najib to look for a job somewhere around singapore
it was tough!
we even went to the outreach of the east and the west!
hahhas so far one of them got to be successful somehow
PLEASE!!!
lets all just put our fingers crossed all the way!

anyway gonna watch New Moon this sunday after work with sis
judging by what i hear,there has been mixed comments about the movie
lets all hope it won't be though!
hhahahas!

"I ain't ready just yet..."

2009-12-09T00:53:00.002+08:00

Match: Pandemonium Vs Slackers
Final Score: 7-9
Match Rating 5.5

It was another mixture of performance for the number 21...
He stood very still valiantly by blocking off two shots destined for goals
he managed to put up a respectable performance in the first half
but it was a different story in the second half when Pandemonium was decreased to seven men...against 10 men Slackers, a very huge hurdle
Second half commences with the number 21 playing the lone defender
terrible throughout the second half...he still ain't getting yet...

Personal Opinion: the pitch ain't that great.the mud was everywhere making it impossible to play...but i guess some part were due to me...gotta work harder!!!!!!!!!!!

sentosa!!

2009-12-07T22:44:00.002+08:00

Today was awesome!!! went to sentosa with my fellow clarinetist in action
its was damn fun
had fun disturbing aqilah hair all day
hahhas damn cino!!!
but cute hahhas*ehemehem
good choice
and i ain't gonna rebond my hair seriously!!!!
hahahhs

play volleyball and den beach soccer and den go swimswim
water was freezing!!!!
managed to get wet and damn it was damn shiok splashing water around hahhas
had dinner with the gang and makan at banquet at vivo city
quite disappointing actually
expected more
so here i am now!! ahhahs

Jakarta!!!

2009-12-07T21:25:00.002+08:00

hhahahs here the low down on my jakarta trip...WOOHOOO

Day One: on my way to Jakarta,packed my bag and all and feeling very excited. can't wait yeah!!!! went to the airport that day and do whatever stuff the airport supposed to do...hahhas
its was a great experience departing on the aeroplane
the experience was fun and a first for me
hahhas anyway the flight took 1hr 40mins and finally we reached to Jakarta
One thing for sure,its damn hotter there
hahhas
anyway, my saudara from jakarta took us from the airport to this place called Tanah Abang
i nicknamed it the "Fake goods under one roof"
hahhas wow
from Polo to adidas
and of course you know
hahhahs and soon then we went to her house and her mother's
and soon after we went to the hotel
not bad a place and the room was first class!

Day Two:went to the amusement park at Jakarta
not bad and went back and fro on the rides
so cool!! lucky didnt ate much though
if not all of us will get sick!! hahhas went back to the hotel and sleep!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Day three: took a rented bus to the area called bandung
siok!!!
the weather was wonderful! cooling like snow
anyway went to a zoo which was sorta like a half safari half close encounter experiences
hahhas how cool was it to be that close to the animals and being in a bus!
cool huh...
hahhas ouh well soon after ate at this restaurant
sedappp!!!!

day four:the end of our journey ended today...
had fun though and enjoyed the pool of the hotel
was great and eventhough the pool was deep for me i enjoyed myself hahahs!!!
and soon enough found myself at singapore!!!
hahhahs

P.s. sowie for the short summary!!

2009-12-01T19:04:00.003+08:00

Match: Eurythemics Vs Avatar
Final score:5-2
Average Rating: 5.5

Today was a much better performance for the young defender
he should a bit more composure when he was introduced in the 30th minute but he was also a bit shaky and not yet to his very best.
Most of his tackles managed to be successful but not all of them were great. his passes was a bit more accurate when he passed to his other teammates...
it was also the same story when he played the second half with the number 21 not able to get the game in his stride. overall, it was still a lack lustre from the number 21,but he did show a small improvement from his previous matches. he still has a long way to go for him to reach his best...

Personal opinion: personally i felt that the whole match was still an average match played by me.i felt that the boots i wore wasn't up to the task. i definitely need a new pair and need it fast. let's all hope for the best in the next match.

Hari Raya Haji!!

2009-11-30T19:06:00.002+08:00

hari raya haji was great!
went to Hajjah Fatimah Mosque for the prayers
brought back alot of memories when my family would go back there to visit my late grandmother...
i know i didn't spent so much time with her but i wish i do
i was young and immature then
i took things for granted
i didn't treasure things around me and i became too careless...
i miss you Embah Fatimah...
haiz wish i have done the job of a grandchild better
stupid me

anyway went to Changi Airport that same night to suck in all the
air condition and air refreshers
ahh the smell of suitcases in the morning
lovely!
hahahs ouh well
met Brenda by chance hahahas
surprisingly she wore the cap from Amsterdam...
probably it the gift her brother went he went there
hahahs
kinda fun
took funny pictures around there
hahhahas and damn there is no GST!!
arghh!
hmm...
another Hari Raya Haji went pass so fast and here we are again
finding the very purposes of our lifes
i just hope that i could have more time to think...

"Every time i looked at myself i wondered..."

2009-11-28T21:37:00.002+08:00

Im damn bored now...
staring at my empty bed...
so damn bored
things didnt turned out as i wanted
so damn bored
gotta train harder to keep myself in the side
so damn bored
talking to myself
so damn bored
tuesday is a match which i extremely want to perform
against my little brother's side...
so damn bored
next thursday im off to Jakarta
new place to explore and a new place to let my mind wonder
hahhahas
ouh well
damn broke and damn bored!!!
ARGHHH!!!!!

"My smiles are never meant to be..."

the big search for deedee's birthday present....

2009-11-27T10:55:00.002+08:00

oh well,you guys guess it
it that time of the year where everyone get a year older
me and syafiq and helmi went to orchard for that birthday present for dee
hahhas still im clueless of what to buy for her actually
hhahahs
went around town to look up and down to see the perfect present
we ended up at Toy'saurus at the Paragon
and finally the gift was there
didnt cost much and i hoped that she likes it though
it wasn't much but it the thought that counts right?
hahhas ouh well
and feeling disappointed too
wanted to buy that Liverpool Football Club socks at Takashimaya
but!
that syafiq places us at the wrong place
haiyaa!!
ended up buying the Nike soccer socks instead
ouh well
at least it something ahh
probably next time
now to save up for a new soccer boots
haiz there goes my wallet!!!

"Missing you so much right now!"

the big match...

2009-11-27T10:43:00.003+08:00

Date:25th November 2009
Match: Eurythemics VS Pandomonium
Final Score:6-5
Match Rating:4.5

It was a match of mix performance from the number 21
he did well in the first half when he shows his skills going up the wing
but that didnt last long when Pandomonium's Quek Hakeem and Sufyan Selamat gave him a hard time on the left wing...
his lack of fitness and matches during his two long months of rest show how much he needed to get back to his best
The second half though he show a better composure and better performance but it wasn't enough with his counterparts in defence not helping in his cause..
and overall bad performance from the number 21...

Personal opinion: its hard to admit that today was a bad match for me
i was both very unfit and that my timing of my tackles were very of timing...i definitely need alot of time of intensive training and hard work to hget back my form...haiz!

Ups and downs!!

2009-11-24T16:20:00.001+08:00

oh well today wasn't half bad but still it was bad
first of all i had to grab my butt to the admiralty station early in the morning just to learn that the match was cancelled!
haiya!
but anyway one thing was sure good about it
i had to taste macdonalds breakfast!!
woohooo
one word:sedap!
hahhahahs eventhough it did burn a hole in my pocket
can't fight the addiction can't i?
hahhas
anyway just met up with syakir and gang and played street soccer
at least there is training for me!!
yeah
but damn was i very not the ready for the match today
lucky it was canceled
long way to go for fitness boy!
ouh well...
then returned home with feet full of blisters!
ohhhh..memories!
hahhahas anyway this thursday might be another match and i am hoping that all come well
tomorrow heading out to the field for another job hunting session again
lets hope that everything will be success
yeah!!!!
but damn is it hot in here or what?!

"The thing about love is that there has never been another feeling like this before..."

2009-11-23T08:21:00.002+08:00

wow! didn't know working as a kendarat at a malay wedding was going to be tough...
legs aching,back hurting,eyes heavy...
its like a never ending thing with me
not to mention that i got to work for two days straight
WOAH!
but anyway at least the reward are great
but one thig is definitely sure
I DO NOT WANT TO EAT ANOTHER PLAT OF NASI BRIYANI!!
kinda sick of it really
and yes,i made a lot of new friends there too
and of course my eyes wandered about looking at hot girls around...
hahhaha! just kidding

ouh well now here i am early in the morning at 8a.m.
alone and self absorb with all that surrounds me
another busy day ahead
but one thing for sure
today i want to rest
and i am definitely not going out
yeshyesh its true!!

but somehow after graduation and all that i seems to be feeling lonely and sad and empty inside
seeing the pictures and the fun they had without me,
it made me feel so unwanted
as if they don't need me at all
like i am just another shadow
haiz
all of them seems to be having someone by their side at least for them to accompany them
all except me
i just wish that there is just someone there out there that can be there
i need you!
i just do not know what to do now...

"The funny thing is,i am so much better without you but yet
my heart say otherwise..."

the funny thing called me

2009-11-21T20:29:00.002+08:00

its hard to admit it but i just ain't feeling okay right now...
even with all the happiness i seems to be showing.
i don't know where i'm hurting...
seriously
i mean my heart want to go right,but my souls want to go left
i hate the fact that im just making people happy but not me...
there ain't nobody,i mean nobody, can really know what i feel
not my family,not my friends,not even the girl i used to call the love of my life
im not hating life and i ain't complaining about why im put here on this earth...
all i ever wanted in my life ever was somebody out there to help me...
be there for me,love me and never hurting me
somebody like you
i love you but you ain't going to be there
so why hang on false hopes?

"Everytime i fall,there is just nobody to hold me there..."

what is love?

2009-11-20T23:31:00.001+08:00

what is love?
a definition which i never seems to find the right one
i mean every time i see a couple snuggling with each other,i could see that fire in them...
from there,there is love between them
for all my sixteen years i been searching for the right path to walk on...
and yet i stood wandering into the darkness
i mean what is it anyway?!
every time i stared at the ceiling of my bedroom half dead thinking about it all the time...
searching for the one is like finding a gem out of the rocks...
its shinning vibrantly but yet hidden under the darkness of the rocks
all i ever wanted was acceptance into a family which i belong,one which loves me,and one that takes care of me like a piece of heaven
all i ever wanted from a girl was the acceptance of who i am...
forget about me being in eury,forget about me being a band major and forget about my academic excellence in school,would she still loves me?
someone who has the guts to slap me in the face whenever i being too much and also someone who loves me for who i am,even how short or wacky i am
it ain't going to be easy but everybody got to try right?
but not me...
the rejections i had felt all this years ain't gonna heal itself no more
its just an open wound
and every night is gonna be a painful one
as the pain inside of me put me to sleep
i just need somebody

"Sometimes the people we choose to forget can't be forgetton..."

getting pissed off!!

2009-11-20T15:56:00.002+08:00

sometimes i got to admit that i do get a little lame and a little bit of an idiot...
but that never says that i do not want to be taken seriously,
cause i definitely do...
i hate the fact people think just because i am small or petite or a class clown,they can just treat me as one...
damn i hate those who believe so...
i mean come on!
i am a human being and i do have feelings like you guys...
sometimes people would just care less and think that my feelings are a play thing...HAH!!
please, i get better treatment when i am in the zoo
at least animals don't talk!
seriously,people think that i am just a small kid that is just plain worthless...
they judge right before they know me...
ARGHHHH!!

Nothing but sorrows fills my heart..."

how am i feeling now??

2009-11-20T09:30:00.002+08:00

damn how i miss this picture...
its only a few days after graduation day and yet i miss you guys already...
you guys had really made me become special and you guys never fail to made me smile from ear to ear
4e1 had really been the best class out there and without you guys i wouldn't be here right now
through both thick and thin moments,you guys stood there for me always like a roots of a tree holding it on for me
haiz how much i wish that we can spent time together again more...
this year seems to pass very quickly, and it ain't not coming back
ohh i wished i can turn back time
love you guys lots...

2009-11-19T15:53:00.002+08:00

Today was mostly filled with both rainy and sad moments...
syafiq didn't turn up for today jogging session because he overslept! damn him! hahahahs
lame excuse...
anyway managed to run longer today...
meaning my fitness is coming back!
yeah!!
gotta be ready for any matches that may come by...
but for now working on my fitness and then ball control on weekends!
cannot wait for my first match like since two months ago?
haizhaiz anxiously waiting

talking about waiting though,today is day number two
and still i am waiting for any calls,especially from the Ducktours and Hippobus...
haiz can't wait to get to work
just imagine me being a promoter heh?
cool

well,thinking of arranging a street soccer with the guys but it seems that the rain ain't gonna stop...
haiz so decided to stay at home and look through my memories box
it just a place where i place my most fondest memories throughout the years...
still kept the birthday both deedee and the kampung melayu 4e1 and especially from my little sister
but the one i most treasured was the one from geraldine
damn how much i appreciate her being there for me always like a best friend always does...
gonna go out with her soon...lets hope!!
anyway look through all the little notes my friends gave me and gotta admit some of them did hurt
but its the hard truth i got to admit
hahhahas well all of us are not perfect in anyway ryte?

finally,not to forget to mention that FINALLY!!! faizal isa out!
yeah rejoice!!
hahhahas sowie for those die-hard faizal isa fans
no offence heh?
hahhas well, let's all of us wish him the best of luck for the future...
oh well...

"Like the things we face in life, a rainbow will surfaced right after a heavy,long rainy day..."

2009-11-19T00:12:00.002+08:00

like expected...i knew that the match against that secondary two team ain't gonna happen really...
simply because it is organised by that yan quan haiyaaa!!
haiz anyway tomorrow is a definite plan to go jogging with syafiq
and hopefully he can keep it up with me! hahhas
soon after planning t the gym with rafidi but somhow i don't feel like going...
probably because im broke and that i have no mood to go out tomorrow hahahah!

hahahhas im still awaiting for that call from the jobs i applied...so anxiously waiting...
i know its just one day since i applied but there seems to be a sense of unrest in me...
kinda stupid but if this doesn't able to get me a job,i don't know what will!

wellwellwell! got to admit that i gain a few pounds, and definitely my old habits of eating so much in one day is coming back definitely...
sometymes, every tyme i stare at my EZ link card,i could not figure it out how i became from him to me
wow
what a huge achievement!!
and damn do i look good!
hhhahas just kidding!

today was a great day for me to reflect on everything i had done this year...
i gotta admit i was an egoistic freak when i joined eury, i guess the feelings to play in a team like eury was like a dream come true
i mean eury was everything a player can ask for
teamwork,togetherness and important and foremost,family
hahhahas well,i gotta change myself...
i been ignoring all those who were close to me and took them for granted
they were responsible for who i am and its because of them i here where i am today...
and im so grateful for it
gotta change for the better...
and for myself...

"There is no boundaries that can stop me from being who i am today..."

a bad start...

2009-11-18T10:30:00.001+08:00

this morning did not turned out as well as planned...
the plan to go jogging today didn't make it due to syafiq falling sick
and frankly me being too worn out from yesterday's walk around town...
hahhahas and here i am now watching tv with my mom...
i kept thinking,my mind is endless sea of thoughts...
somehow my head is just not in the game no more...
the more i grow up,the more i have to think about my future,the responsibility as a important member in the family and ultimately what i am seriously gonna do after secondary level...
it ain't gonna be easy but i just got to do it...

at least for now i can wash my hands off syafiq if you know what i mean...
finally!!
so i just wish you guys the best and congrats!!
and please don't do anything stupid please!

hahhahhas well,once again my head is stuck at crossroads
seriously i mean somehow the feelings inside is a blender you know?
i mean one minute i can be angry,the other minute i can be so emotional...
called it weird but i just want to end this now...
i ain't gonna demoralise myself no more cause right now it ain't worth it...
im happy with myself and that the way it goes...
i mean going back ain't the way no more, i just got to be looking forward to new challenges,new obstacles and also new roads to tread...
im really happy seriously
hahhahahhas happyhappyhappy!!
so chill out and get out!
hahhahas!

"The ever changing world ain't gonna stay at one spot,so get up and get it..."

aint not going to be the same again...

2009-11-17T23:32:00.002+08:00

well,graduation was a blast!
turned out better than expected and damn was it sad to leave this school...
i ain't kidding when i say that i really got the urge to cry...sobsob!!
it ain't going to be easy to leave such good friends behind...
the real people who were responsible for my growth to the man i am now...
i am really thankful for everything for the things you guys have done for me...
and hopefully all my mistakes can be forgiven and please don't lose contacts right?
hahahas sincerely gonna miss you guys...

anyway after graduation went out with yazid for the ducktours interview...
$1800 per month,4 hours per day?
not bad actually
but damn was the competition was fierce
many came from all around singapore to apply
ain't gonna put my hopes high but lets all pray hard and hope very the hard for the best...
then we apply at three different starbucks...
woah my fingers are aching from writing all those applications forms
haizhaiz
anyway lastly we went to apply for Toy'sauras
that's a total of five applications today!!!
wow...

anyway,had a really man to man talk with yazid about relationships and myself...
it was worthwhile, and it really hit me damn hard on my heart...
somehow he was right in what he said...gotta admit that it was all true and right for all the right reasons...
gonna take time for me to really absorb what he told me today and whole lot of reflections...
its hard to swallow the truth but all of us had to do what we gotta do...
people are better judges than ourselves...
right now i gotta the time to really think about what i am going to do in the future and the beyond...
it's gonna be hard and takes time, but for the what i am achieving for,it's all worth it...

"Stop staying in the past because it ain't gonna stay with you..."

2009-11-17T06:16:00.003+08:00

yesterday wasn't so much of great day.
fought with my mom about the duties of mine in the house and my usual habits of going out.
haiz...
didn't manage to get the job at Siam'sKitchen though, all the vacancies were taken up already,,,ohhh man!!
it sucks when things just don't go your way...
haizhaiz

i just want to break free from this house someday...
it seems as though i am a prisoner in my home with the whole burden of the house responsibility resting on my heavy shoulders
haiyaaa!!
ohhh how much i hate that!
anyway today graduation day for all graduating students
i bet it gonna sucks like it has been a few years back
but one thing for sure
i definitely gonna miss everyone in this school, both teachers and staff
fond memories flows through my head like a steam engine
gotta admit that i became a man when i stepped into this school
and of course,a lot more slimmer!!
hahhahas
anyway anywho,i wish everyone all the best for the future and hopes for the best for our o'levels results...
stay happy and smile always!!

"You are the driver of our own future, you decide,you do..."

this is just pure randomness...

2009-11-16T10:33:00.002+08:00

ever wondered if you had a time machine you would want to turn back time and make sure everything turned out as plan?
hahhahas i wish i don't...
life is perfect as it is and i think that is this tiny small unpredictability that makes life like a roller coaster...its has its ups and downs...
sometimes i wonder if the world has something against me...
ego is something that all of us possesses...and i gotta admit that i am one of them...
i mean i know even you have an ego too...
its just something that all you can't escape...

loving someone ain't easy but it just another thing that all of us gotta face,even me...
everybody do deserve a chance for all of us to love, it doesn't exclude me as well...
hahhahahs what bull am i talking!
hahhas anyway,i just want everyone to know that im doing okay and im as happy as always...
there is nothing to worry about me cause i alive and well...its no use worrying...
anyway i just hope people understand me being quiet is just a way for me to think cause i really the time to think about stuff...
so chilled awwryte?!
hahhahs haizhaiz

"Letting go is just only part of the game,its just something we all have to do..."

2009-11-16T09:51:00.004+08:00

phew,tiring and very the worn out...
just back from jogging with syafiq and damn was i unfit
i hope that i can get back that form i was used to be before
only time will tell if i would deserve that starting eleven...
anyway all the best for syafiq though or tomorrow if you know what i mean hahhaha!!
most going for the job application at Siam's Kitchen at Causeway...
going off around three in the afternoon...
hope that i won't fall asleep by then.
going jogging again i think at around 5 again
phew,my goals to become one of the best is on its way!!
woohhooo rejoice!

hahhhas anyway just wondering about what i did this year 2009
reflecting what i have done wrong and right and just hoping for the best for the future...
gonna miss everybody and ironically gonna miss the school after tomorrow's graduation party...
hope to see you guys again soon!!!
and especially the band.
i hope the band gonna be well with the new cconductor and all...
and of course i will come back someday!
hahhas anyway good luck you guys for the future upcoming SYF...eh maintain or go one better okay!

i been thinking...
i wonder if really there is someone out there who really cares
i mean i just want to look for someone who respects and love me for who i am,
it doesn't matter if im short or wacky or weird or makes a fool of myself,
im just looking for someone who i can be comfortable being me,you know...hahhahs i know its going to hard but at least i know that i willing to wait for that right person...
patience is a virtue i will always say!
hahhahas!

haizhaiz sighing has seems to the thing i been doing all the time huh?
im just waiting for the day where im going to be care free and happy always!!
well that's just me,hate it or love it!

"What the use of being someone you're not when you so used being you?"

2009-11-16T00:35:00.002+08:00

bored to the core now...and dun tink its gonna change anyway...
so since i have the time now lets all have fun with each other company
hahahas!
so anyway staring at the computer screens for at least an hour or so...
so bored
nobody here's to accompany me and yet i am seems to be talking to myself
call me crazy huh?!
well, just hoping the vacancy at Siam's Kitchen is still open though...
haizhaiz
hopinghoping and hoping
i just hope everything can go as plan
and i really hope that my form can return soon cause my first team lineup is on the line...
tomorrow gonna be the start of my training again hopefully,IF i can wake up...hahhas
anyway, the funny thing is that i have been having the stupid dream on and on again damn it
hahas got to admit its both stupid and funny
nevermind forget about it haiz
happy and smiling always...

"The funny friend like you..."

2009-11-16T00:04:00.002+08:00

ohh well,here we are again trying to make everything perfect again...
with prom night coming soon all of us gotta be busy with all the preparations and all...
not to mention eurythemics's plans and matches
haizhaiz
well u gotta do what u gotcha do
anyway i up in th middle of night doing nothing
today training session turned out so bad and damn was i out of shape and in the worst form
gotta change and improve to become one of the best!
hopefully!!
had fun today...with family and all around orchard road...
went around ion which i never been before and hahahs and yeah i was quite impressed...
hopefully that the buffet i ate at royal plaza had gone done digested!
not bad and not so great either
at least we had a great taste of the finer things in life...
gotta admit the first time i had been in such a place...
i am not definitely not talking about yesterday cause everything that was planned was screwed up!
haiyaa and definitely a wast of money watching singapore against thailand...
really need a lot of work...
speaking about work,i most probably trying my luck at Siam's kitchen
i ain't fussy about work coz i desperately need the money...
seriously
with prom coming and eury'funding every month my pockets are going to be burned to bits...
well we all can't be chooser can we? hahhas wellwell
damn bored at the moment though...

"Happiness ain't ever gonna come knocking..."

What going on...

2009-11-15T23:19:00.003+08:00

sometymes i wonder if really there was a person out there who really cared about how i feel inside...
sometymes i wonder if people realised that whenever they called me "shorty" or watever shit names they used had been really been killing me inside...
i mean i know i do have those qualities but do they have to emphasize it?
i mean come on lah!!
im not disabled or anything...i can do the stuff u guys are doing if i put mind to it you know?!
sometymes i just wonder if people can just stop and look at me for a second tyme...
they judge me right before they know me...
thats what irritates me the most
haiz i just want people to understand that i am capable to do what i want and when i want...
i may be small but its this small things that makes the huge differences in the world you know?

seriously speaking,i ain't sure if im ready for love yet...
i mean i gotta admit that i am jealous of those around me but i keep reminding myself not to...
but damn its way too easy for me to fall in love!
hahahhas blame me for having such a gift
but one thing for sure...i ain't going to look for love though
all i know that i gotta have patience and gotta wait for that one particular person...and hope Allah picked the ryte one for me...
Insyaallah...

Anyway enuff of the bad stuff...now the good stuff....
I'm a complicated teenager who just want to know where he belong in the world
the world can be harsh but everybody gotta take the winds of change huh?
Anyway, im a band geek and a huge huge fan of liverpool fc...
loves soccer to the core and hopes the best for the upcoming future...
phew i said a mouthful!!

"The unbreakable chains have grab hold of me!!"